♥ @ Kisses

❥ Tuesday, February 09, 2010 @ 10:10 PM

Just finish editing my blogskin and info. Cute icons everywhere!! Hehe :)

I think this blogskin is like my longest blogskin already. I used it since.... Last year April or May I think. Always changing the fonts/colours lmao. I don't seem to like other blogskins already, how. :(

Blablabla. Today was kinda horrible. I had a nice lunch anyway. Chi cheong fun?? Was izzit called in English har? I don't know LOL. But after that damn busy, those people are like, one come in only then others also wanna join in the 'fun' so more and more people came in and we 3 were like, super busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy until I'm so pissed.

Pissed because I kena gan from people. ZZ. Tmd. :(

Whatever lar. Weiai is forgiving so she will forgive and forgets. *smiles happily

[c=4] ナナ　かわむら [/c] // o2o21o . [c=0] 梁婉晶爱赖俊霏 [/c] says: you like ahlian u noe? hair dye until like what.
Ivy think she kute siak 梁婉晶爱赖俊霏 wor!!! LOL~~
Even if she kute I think I even more kute. I CUTER OK. LOL.

Muahaha. I think when she's reading this part she confirm laughing and say I bhb. :( BUT REALLY MA I CUTER WHAT!!!!!! Like so... Obvious right. *wink ^^

But anyway.... My main point is, she said that I look like ahlian because of my hair colour...... AND SHE'S NOT THE FIRST ONE WHO SAID SO LOR. Like don't know how many people say liao -_- ZZZ. I am not ahlian I am not ahlian I am not ahlian I AM AH-NOT-LIAN. :)

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Anyway my SG guardian very kute. She called me just nao and guess what she told me?

"I tell you ah I know what you can buy for me le, you go buy special cny cookies for me to eat!!!!"

贪吃猫 =.="

And then hor... My SG grandma called me too. She told me that she accidentally cut her finger when chopping chicken feet -.-? Some flesh from her finger got cut-ed and got alot of blood... Scary.

You know, I feel really damn upset when I heard her saying so.. I think it's because she's getting old? She's no longer the grandma that she was when I was 3. Her eyesight was great in the past, her hands and face weren't as wrinkled as they are now, her hair was black and not grey (she dyes her hair red often nowadays), and most importantly she was much younger in the past compared to now. To be honest even though I'm with her for 10 over years but I never knew her real age, everytime when someone asks me about her age I'd just say 62 or something. But just some time ago I heard from her that she's actually turning 70 soon, probably in 3 years' time? Guiltyness overwhelmed me I swear. :(

There were also some times that I dreamt that she passed away suddenly (TOUCH WOOD!!!), and when I wokeup I'm crying and crying and crying. I mean.. I seriously cannot imagine how will it be if she really is gone forever one day.. I think I can be crazy. This woman was there to feed me and shower me with love and care since I'm with her, she brought me up and never uttered a word about how hard it was for her because of my temper. Although she do complains at times to people about how naughty and rude I am to her but she still love me like her own when I'm not. This woman once told me a few years back, that when her husband passed away from an illness, she wanted to commit suicide and join him. But when she saw the young me, she decided not to and lived on for me because she didn't want to see me being ignored by others. She wanted to give me the best and love me and be like my parents. Whatever she did for this child, is all because she loves her.

I told myself that I'll be filial to her because I love her. Even though we're not blood related but I love her as one. Because she deserve my love more than anyone else. She's someone that I must respect, love, and care for. I promised myself and I will do it. I will change for her, I will fight for my own rights and show her that I'm a clever girl, I can stand on my own and be independent. All because, she loves me. :)

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Time now: 10.42PM. And I'm still at lan zz. It's raining outside now.. How am I suppose to go home siak. Retard. -.-

Sighhhhhhh... I miss hubbiebi. Bytheway happy 11th monthsary baby!! Wo ai ni. :'))