❥ Tuesday, September 29, 2009 @ 2:48 AM
When I reached home after lan, I fell asleep for an hour I think. Wokeup, cooked vege for dinner, ate, bathed, did a mask and now lying on bed while blogging with phone. So no life. -.-
Guardian called me to talk to me about the work permit thing. She said if I'm really working there I won't be able to get leave as and when I like. Which is a good thing too because that means I can've my freedom to go where I want after work. To supper with friends or just hangingout. Yay. ^^
Darling said she's gonna treat me to a movie when I'm back. I'm so looking forward to it alrightie. Missed those times with her. Been quite long ever since we had some hearttalkings right my dear. Soon, soon! ^^
So anyway, for the past few hours I'm like pondering over some stuffs. Kinda troubled. But I don't know who to tell to. Ha, retarded. Called up quite a few people just now but all seems to be busy? Sist you good lor like that kup my phone. Heartbrokened manz. Lmao. Bro sounded so upset. Just went to his blog & I'm right afterall, something happened. Hope you're alright ok love. Talk to me soon, loveya muacks. ^^
Boring. Boring. I'm gonna rot till death. I'm missing somebody so much. I wants to hug him to sleep so much. :( It's so lonely to be without him. Aww. I miss you dearest. Where's you now. Why haven't I heard from you for the past few days? Is everything alright? I hope so. :( 突然好想你, 你会在哪里, 过得快乐或委屈? Sighz. Is what I'm thinking gonna come true? That history's gonna repeat itself? Think I can bang wall if it's gonna happen man. Lmao. I'm like so retarded now talking to myself. Hahaha. -.-
Whatever. I know you know that I'll miss you very much. But I don't know if you'll miss me as much too? Argh what's all these. Rubbish. Omfg.
Eeew like seriously what's wrong with me. Fucking emotions coming back to me again omg!! Nooooooo.......
That sucks la. Really. I just want you to care more about my feelings.....
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“I'll pretend everything is fine, so you'll sing me a lullaby.”
Have got a chinese short story to share with you guys. Appreciate my effort because I typed it all out by phone. Took me almost 1hour. -.-
It's real touching. Or atleast to me. A part of it reminds me of baby. I miss you baby. And i love you very much too. You know that i know. :)
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那天他回去的时候，意外的发现，她竟然没有做晚饭。这是很少出现的事情。结婚后, 她一直安心做一个全职太太，把家打理的温馨的宜人。而他, 正是因为她的照顾，能够全心全意在商海中打拼, 并且能够节节胜利。
她皱着眉说, 她有一点不舒服。他很体贴地安慰她: 『没事的，我明天休息，带你去医院检查一下，保准是个小毛病，很快会好起来的』。
第二天, 他送她去医院。医生是他的一个多年好友。趁她去做B超的空档，医生说:『你那么忙, 不如也做一次全身检查吧，身体重要啊。』他点头应允。
她果然是小毛病，功能性子官出血，医生开了些药, 吩咐她好好休息。
但药物并没有让她的病很快好起来。第二次去复查时, 医生说:『有一个坏消息必须要告诉你, 你丈夫的肝脏，可能有点问题，你得做好心理准备。』
她的心直往下沉。从医生小心谨慎的话语中, 她听出来了:『丈夫得了肝癌。』
她忍住眼泪，问:『告诉我, 他还有多长时间?』
『这很难说。』医生说, 『关键要看病人自己, 照他的情况，也许一年, 也许五年, 也许十年。』
『我知道了。』她抓起手袋往外走, 她要赶回去，回去照顾她的爱人。医生叫住她:『你这个样子，怎么能够照顾好他呢?』
她怔着。是啊，这些日子以来，因为她身体不适，一直都是他无微不至的照顾她。
她接受医生的劝告，做了子宫切除手术。因为，她要快点好起来，快点照顾心爱的人。
只是有一点点遗憾，他们还没有孩子。
切除子宫后, 她的病好的很快。然后，她开始用全部的精力，来爱他, 疼他, 关心他。
他常常笑着说:『老婆，你不要对我这么好, 你让我丧失了找个情人的理由。你不知道吧? 我也想体验一把婚外恋的感觉呢。』
她佯怒:『你敢。』
他举手投降:『小的不敢了，老婆大人饶命。』她笑的时候，他刚刚还举起的手悄悄搂住她的纤腰:『有妻如此，夫复何求?娶了你, 是我一生最大的幸福。』她的泪水差点落了下来。
他最后的时光，应该是快乐的，她想。她的爱也确实在延长着他的生命。一年, 两年……… 他的身体，竟想从来没有病过一样。
熬到第六个年头，她倒下了。
她是含着笑去的。她说:『我到底还是走在了你的前面。这以后的日子，你可要好好的啊。』
一滴温热的泪从他眼里掉出来，他说:『老婆，你放心去吧，我根本就没得肝癌…』
她擦去他的眼泪，说:『我知道，得癌症的是我。我在半年前就知道这个秘密了。老公，我只是想, 要为你多活几年……』
他失声痛哭。
这个世界上, 最了解她的, 也许就是他。她爱他胜过爱自己的生命。所以，六年前, 当得知她患了子宫癌后, 他决定用这样一个谎言来把她留住。他知道，只要自己需要她, 她就不会轻易倒下。
当初，医生曾经断言，她的生命只有六个月，可是，为了他, 她活了六年。
