♥ @ Kisses

❥ Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 9:50 PM

I'm now so fucked, like, y'kno.
I hate it when I feels so inferior, like no one cares.

Been moody today, a serious moodswing. I'm like wondering whether is this job really suitable for me? I doesn't have much of the heart to learn things right now. Don't ask me why because I don't know either. I really do ~~love~~ like working there but sometimes I just don't like it when I got kinda being made fun of? Who'll like it man you tell me. It's really so pressurizing at times. I hate it. Argh wtfbbqsaucezxc. :(

Like I'm not miserable enough, stupid Cbox.ws is like having some probs now. I've changed my cbox's colours already but it's still not shown on my blog. Fuckedup. :@

Sometimes I feels that people around me are just putting up a show? Like actually they doesn't like talking to me or hearing me out but because on the surface we're what we call 'good friends', so they've no choice but to listen. I don't like it when I'm saying something and then suddenly another person cuts my sentence and yank about their's. It's really terrible, for me. Especially when you know that you won't be talking much to me 'cause your other bunch of friends are there, then why bother asking me out? Then if I give black face you all say I attitude. It's not that I want to be emo or what but I just can't clique with some people. What else you want me to do? It's already good that I don't shout at them right. Better than some people that I actually fucking gave a lj bin and went off because I was so pissed with their fuckup attitudes.
Th replies? Like if I say "How're you?" and the other just replies "Oh, fine loh/doing good, haha."

Fine maybe it's just me thinking too much but I really hate it because it seems so mother fucking cold lah ok!! :(

Whatever. I just hate it when I'm needed people comes talking to me and pleasing me but when I'm not needed they just fucking ignores me.

YOU PEOPLE ARE A BUNCH OF SHIAT OK DIU.
:@

I don't know why but I'm doubting everything right now.
I'm afraid that this Love is just a lie. I doesn't want history to repeat themselves.
I'm paranoid of going through those heartbreaks again.
I just wants to live my life peacefully like how it was.
But why did things turn out this way?

Nothing's wrong now between me and him but I just feel so............. Afraid.
Really really really afraid that it's all just lies.
I hope that it's not. I really hope so.
Because I really love you so much.
So much that I know that I can never give you up.

亲爱的你很幸福，因为你能选择爱我或不爱我；
但我只能选择爱你或更爱你。

I'm feeling so down now. I'm sorry if you doesn't like reading today's post.
I just can't help feeling so.........