❥ Thursday, August 27, 2009 @ 3:28 PM
I did something real stupid 2days ago. It's stupid, yet relieving. Been months ever since i did that. Sigh.
Yesterday was th worst of my life. Breakup + leaving Sg is already heartbreaking enough. As if it's not enough, th sky rained when i reached KL and i was all alone because my father wasn't free to fetch me yet. Imagine you're at somewhere that you're not familiar with, and drenched from head to toe? It's really saddening. I've never felt so lonely before. And when i called 'him' up to ask about 'some possibilities', he said it's impossible because he don't have th feelings anymore.
Ohwell?
Heartbreaks x million.
I deleted his number because i doesn't want to be so stupid anymore. But even if i deletes it i still remember it.. -.-
It really suck being alone. Idk why but my bed and pillow have his smell. Wtf. And today when i opened my eyes he's th 1st that came to my mind. )':
My attitudes are th ones that caused everything. Are they? I know i've wrongs too but my intentions were ok what?
How on earth can a girl tahan other girls to hong her boyfriend la you tell me?
Ya stupid to argue over such things. But all i wished that he'll assure me by saying that his heart's mine. Or maybe just hold my hand when I'm upset?
But on that day he didn't. He just walked away. Hahaha.
If you're reading my blog now, I'm not blaming you or saying it's your fault. I just find it ridiculous? So much for those giving in to you, those changes i had made for you. I thought we'll be tgt till old but now it's all over. I asked for a chance but you declined. What else can i say? I wonder if you're actually trying to make a revenge on me for breaking your heart months ago? Lol maybe I'm thinking too much. Idk.
All i know is i love you and i miss you still.
