♥ @ Kisses

❥ Friday, July 10, 2009 @ 6:41 PM

I'm really sad.

Will post when I'm free/better.
Goodbye.

I know, I know that I'm very naggy towards you, but baby, it's all because I care, I care about you very much, so much that I don't even care about myself. All these while, all these days with you, I've tried so hard, put in so much effort, love, and feelings, to make you feel that you're a guy that deserved to be loved and to be cared. I didn't ask much from you, I only wanted you to be happy, and take good care of yourself whenever I'm not with you. Baby don't you know, how happy I'll be whenever I sees you, whenever I see your smiles, my heart will melt and starts to beat faster. In this 4month+, I lived only for you, and only you. When my world is full of darkness, you appeared and lightenedup my world for me. I told myself before, I will never love another but only you, because only you can give me such strongs feelings that I've never felt before. I love you deeply, truely I do, I can do anything for you, whether isit givingup my life for yours, or just leaving you to see you happy. I'm willing to, I'm really willing to. All those texts, those hugs, those kisses, those warmth that we had before, I don't know if yours meant real, but surely mine did. No matter how many times I tell myself not to remember you, and those sweet memories, I just can't help thinking aback. I miss you so much everyday. Do you know, that I'm so lost without you. I've cried countless of times for you, be it for our happiness or arguements or breakups. Why, why do you always give me hope but smash it all up afterthat? Why didn't you let me go whenever I asked for break? You've told me loads of things before, and no matter how much it is, I really remembers them all. This time when I came back, Baby you said you'll treasure me, you won't mia anymore, won't leave me alone anymore, you wanna makeup to me, you wanna treat me well. But why, why are you like this now. I really wonder what made you changed so much. Do you still remember how sweet and loving we were in the first 2months of our relationship? But why.... Why are we like this now... Maybe it's time for me to wakeup, to realise that you're no longer the K.PYL I love. But I hope you know, that I've never ever regretted in anything. The happiest times of my life is those days with you. Baby I really miss you very terribly. I wished so badly that you'll be with me and never ever leave me. No matter how badly you've treated me, I still love you very deeply. What's mine, no matter whatever happens, it'll still be mine. I hope that the next time when we see eachother, is the day that you've changed and is back for me. I love you.

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