❥ Thursday, June 04, 2009 @ 4:09 PM
I miss you so much everyday. I always look at those pictures we took, and realised that you, from a kiddy looking boy, changed to a much more matured looking guy. From a boy that smiles gleefully, to a guy that smiles coldly. Looking aback now tears my heart apart. I remember, whenever I say I'm hungry you'll want to cook for me. When I'm tired you'll let me lend on your shoulder. When I'm sad you'll hold my hand tight and let me know that you're there for me. When I'm happy you'll look at me and smile and lock my lips with a sweetest kiss. When I cry you'll wipe away my tears gently and tell me not to, because it pains your heart. Where've this guy I knew went to?
I had been dreaming of you for nights. I dreamt that actually you still luv me and even got a ring engraved with our names and date and hid it in my luggage. When I found it I called my friend and exclaimed that you still luv me, you didn't left me. Suddenly, LadyGaga's Lovegame woke me up and that's when I realised everything was just a dream. Too fake to be true.
Had I treated you not well, or isit because I'm not pretty so you doesn't luv me anymore? Haha, I don't know. Perhaps it was a good thing that we stayed far apart from eachother, or else if I sees another girl in your arms.. How heartbreaking will that be, for someone's heart that's already cracking.
I miss those times when you hugs me so tightly that I can lose my breath. I miss those times when you plants kisses on my lips. I miss those times when you hold my hand so tightly and telling me you'll not let me go. I miss every part of you, boy..
I'm struggling to not be reminded of you, but I always do. Boy, tell me how, tell me why, can you? ):
You once said that when we're old enough, and when you've a stable job already you and I will have a small happy family, and you won't want me to suffer, you'll want me to stay at home and look after our kids. Have you forgottened how sweet we used to be?
I know that letting you go is the only solution for us. But even so, my heart and everything else of me yearn for you as much as before. K, I love you. I really really love you. But I'm letting you go to find your happiness. Goodbye, my dearest love.. <\3
