❥ Saturday, February 21, 2009 @ 12:16 AM
Mr.Bean's Tabby! :)
Haha.
Me & him, ended.
You're asking why?
Because, his mother kinda thinks that i am cheating his feelings & it's a waste of money calling me daily(this is quite true though).
Laugh.
He told me when he saw me online in MSN. & he asked me not to be angry.
Why will i be angry, even?
I am feeling more sad than to angry just now & now..
It's funny that we were just talking about IF one day we happens to brk's stuffs. And it happened today. O.O
So nice LOL.
Hahaha.
I am feeling so terrible right now, no doubt...
Now, because of his mother, we're gone case.
HOW NICE? Lmfao.
I rejected his last "muackssss" on MSN and he asked me why.
I said i don't want it sorry.
He said why.
I said, because i only wants you and your love.
Yes, i only wants YOU.
I love you. I needs you.
But what now? Hahaha.
You asked me to wait, idk if i will anot. I can't think..
My heart is so brokened now..
Your words stabbed my heart so damn hardly.
When you told me we have to break i didn't cry. My feelings were numb-ed.
I just stood thr, stare at what you wrote & stare again.
I miss you so much right now.
I loved you so deeply.. But now everything's gone..
When my life's full of darkness, you came and showed me th way.
When i am sad, you cheers me up w your silliness.
When i am happy, you're thr to share my happiness.
It became a habit to wait for your call every night.
Everytime when it's close to 12:30AM i am so happy. Because that's when i finally can talk to you abt th day & tells you how much i misses you.
That's th time when i can hear you telling me you love me, calling me Dear, Laopo, Mother.
I thought that we'll hangon & goes through everything together.
I thought that we'll last.
But, it's just 23days.
Ohwell..
You're th 1st guy that made me felt so in love w you, so happy w you, so contented w you, so sweet w you.
Even though i am in Malaysia, but my heart's w you in Singapore since 29Jan.
You were my everything.
My love for you is so damn true and deep.
But....
Now that all these happened, i can't do anything.
Your mother doesn't trusts me.
She doesn't believes that my love for you, her son, true.
Even your father knows it now.
I doesn't want to put you in a difficult position, being sandwiched between me & your parents.
So i only can let you go..
Goodbye, my most beloved guy..
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Haha.
Alright updates now.
Many thanks to Yeeling Lovelove for helping me relink & link my sisters & friends and even intend to change my blogskin tmrw. Rly thankyou so much.
I love you :)
MSN is boring today, with not much to talk to. Sigh.
And i failed to psycho myself to do housework today, like again. Zzz.
At 12PM+ my aunt suddenly called me and i seriously was like, wtf is she back?!
But heng she's only calling to ask me how am i & do i still have food to eat.
Lol scaryyyyyy.
She asks me to sms my father to ask him to buy food for me. I sms-ed but he nvr call or reply. I think he changed his number or smth :o Lol.
Aiya. Who cares.
How i hope i will die from starvation right now. Lol.
I was in th toilet gg to bathe when he told me to brk and it was at 10PM.
LOL, i swear i rly stood thr & stare blankly at my phone for mins.
I felt so sad...
Went to bathe to cool myself down. I bathed w cold water. But it isn't cold at all lol. Nvm, shall try again tmrw :D
I am soooo wishing to fall ill right now. Den it'll make me feels slightly better i guess :)
2teardrops fell and i rubbed it off.
I kept wanting to cry when th water were pouring over my head. Because i got reminded of times that he tells me "i love you", "i miss you so much leh Dear", and every other stuffs...
I rly wanted to cry..
But i held back.
I told myself that i won't cry i won't cry Weiai you won't cry.
Yes. Psychoing myself this right now. Lol.
Overall, today is just not my day and it totally sucks to th core.
So bastards and bitches go and fucking suck your father's balls you fucktards.
I rly need to vent my slightly-angry-de-sadness right now...
