❥ Friday, February 27, 2009 @ 10:08 PM
Fuck you Kelvin. You broke your promise to me.
I actually believed that you'll call on time yet you fucking dua me.
Open your eyes big here.
I won't believe your words anymore la hor. Tmd.
My mood is super fuckup cuz of many things. I've no idea why.
I feels like scolding pple right now la ccb _l_
And i am getting fatter cuz i kept eating biscuits/breads/noodles/milo powder/wheatoat & some cuz of th depression/anger i've in these few days. Imagine like it's only a few days since i got my th bigger tub of butter & i actually had eaten half of it. How nice eh? I've eaten so many fats in me, increasing more fats i've got. Lmfao.
I seriously needs to play/swing/spin my hulahoop soon. Maybe l8r or tmrw?
I've been talking to Kelvin on th phone these 3days & i swear now i am damn dulan w him. Everytime say this time call but in th end leh? Don't know fly go whr. Knn puabye, makes me so damn fucking fuckup now. -.-
I slept at 5AM+ 2days ago. Yesterday fell asleep at 2AM+ while smsing & downloading songs.
Kinda happy that i've got quite a number of DBSK, 林峰's songs. Highly recommendation for DBSK's Love in the ice! You'll love it. Well atleast i do.
I realise that most of their songs have those 'whoooowhooo' tunes. Made me so addictive to it & always hums it. Hahah.
I am gonna download more JayChou's songs l8r! Yay.
Friendster is getting really boring. Macham one online chatting website w photos nia. Feels like deleting it. Should i? Zzz.
MSN is boring too. So many contacts for fuck? Nobody really bother to talk to me one leh. Lmfao.
I hate this la okay? PUI.
Fucking have th urge to whack/kill somebody up right now. _l_
I am a very weird person. When i am not angry i will not have th strength that can make ppl feels pain. Dots. Whatever.
I seriously don't know what's wrong w me today. I am so fuckup, so irritated bout everything, so lonely; i am everything negative now.
Even though i've got pple to sms w but i am super moodless to do anything but to eat/sleep/watch tv.
I'm sick of those shows because there are nothing for me to watch alrd. All watched before like so many times? -.-
I miss Dear. How i wish that i can teleport myself/him to eachother. I seriously wants to hug him so fucking tightly till he can't breathe. Lol!
I miss Liping & Mandy & Felicia's hugs! ):
My Sg family is gg to Taiwan next week. How nice. I miss Taipei & th places thr. ):
Today i talked to my guardians on th phone & my grandma & actually i kinda shed a few tears because i miss them so much. Even though one of my guardian sounded damn sarcastic when talking to me but i miss her way of suaning me. Now i know, actually she meant well. I really wish to go back to help them. They're having so many troubles right now, since th restaurant is alrd closed & they can't find another shop.
No job = no income. Fuck la why am i so insensible in th past? Only till i comes back Msia den i realise who's th ones that loves me, nvr left me, cares for me truthfully.
Fuck this Pang family cuz they're not treating me like a human at all. My Aunt is not bad, but she's locking me up in her hse, makes me so lonely here.
I wish that i can goout like every other teenagers out there! I seriously needs cigarettes now. I wonder who can get a few packets to me? ):
Readers, heed my advice. Go to school & study.
I fucking regretted not turningup for school just because i doesn't want to see a bunck of fake friends that i once thought they're my true friends.
I shouldn't had stayed in BM for them. My life had a drastic & terrible change cause of them.
I don't give a damn if they're reading this! Call me a bitch that is ruining their reputations or whatsoever. I really is deeply hurt by everything they all did. Tyvm la hor.
Anyway. Those who always likes to pon or wants to dropout of sch, seriously think thrice before doing it.
So many ppl regretted doing so, or atleast i did?
I fucking did okay. Life is bitch since i quitted schooling.
I don't even know what'll my future be now. I wonder if i can get a stable job in th future w only a PSLE certificate? Lmfao?
I can't seem to cheerup even though i am watching comedy now. I feels especially lonely today..
I hate life.
Andrea once told me that i don't hate this world but i hate those pple in it that made me so miserable.
It do makes sense.. Ah fuck everything.
I hate everything, i swear.
And tomorrow will be th last day i will be online.
No more free surfing alrdy.
Bye.
