❥ Friday, January 16, 2009 @ 8:13 PM
Ginwei/JT, if you happens to be here, remember this Elmo? :D
A few more months to it's 1year-old ohs! xD
I so wuxim right? ^^
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Skykid called me just now.
I told SK about him.
SK reprimanded me x.x
He asks me to go & ask for patch back.
How can i? I've no confidence in myself anymore. ):
Let's have this scenario:
Okays, if we patch, then sekali aft a few months i tells him the same thing that i said a few days back?
Then he'll be upset again?
Then I'll realise that i still love him & i wanna patch w him again?
Okays, then if he accepts me again, then everything goes in a cycle, again?
OMG.
NO.
I dowan to see him cry or upset anymore.
It fucking hurts me.
Like millions of needles poking into my heart.
Like billions of arrows piercing through my heart.
Like zillions of knives stabbing hard into my heart.
Zzz. Exaggerating?
I think so. But...
It's true.
That afternoon when he called me & told me those stuffs...
I rly felt heartbroken.
But i didnt cry.
Firstly, i dowan him to hear me cry, again.
Secondly, i dowan to cry.
Lastly, my tears dried up that day before. -.-
Zzz.
Ya.
Then i kept Hai-ing on th phone. That's my habit when i am bored.
Okays here's the mainpoint.
• SK got kinda angry.
Rofl. He said, "Loving someone isn't like this, if you love him, you should go!"
That's only IF he loves me too.
That's only IF I've got the confidence.
That's only IF i wouldn't have those feelings subsiding, asks for break, & I'll only realise that after.
And some other possibilities but lazy to say.
Hell no.
I swear, SWEAR, that i donhv the 3points above!
If only i'm the Weiai back in 2006.
The Weiai that'll love a guy blindly, will not have those feelings.
I dontknow why did i changed.
I think it's ever since T.H?
Zzz.
He left me years back.
All of the sudden.
And left me alone in the dark alleys in my heart, my world.
I took 1year & 6months to forget him TOTALLY.
Even though in between i had those audi boyfs that i treated the r/s seriously but in the end feelings'll fade & I'll say sayonara to them.
Because i cant find the feeling of T.H on them.
LMAO. I am bad. -_-
Fuck.
Lol.
This one? Haish.
Can those memories of me & him talking on the phone & everything STOP poppingout, making me misses him so much?
Nnb. -_-
What a bad move.
Zzz.
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Oh. I am a goodgirl today.
I mopped 1/3 of downstairs. (LOL)
Eh that one is very big okays.
Like... A school's girls' toilet?
Eh no. Bigger. HAHA.
See? I AM GOOD. :)
And upstairs. Scrubbed toilet tooooh!
Muahahahs. :B
But tomorrow I'll have to clean again.
Tired luh. :(
And the dust that's mountaining in my room's corners... So thick lah!
LOL.
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Never Be Replaced, 1stLady.
Baby i love you & I'll never let you go
But if i have to boy i think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
& I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you & I'll never let you go
But if i have to boy i think that you should know
The love we made can never be erased
& I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time
From the day i met you
I knew we'd be together
& now i know i wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you & i wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to the feeling of your kisses
I can say i'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank God that i live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind that i'd regret ever having you by my side.
But if the day comes that i have to let you go
I think there's something i should probably let you know,
Enjoyed everyday that i spent with you & I wont miss you cause i'm happy that i had you at all.
Baby i love you & I'll never let you go
But if i have to boy i think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
& i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you & I'll never let you go
But if i have to boy i think that you should know
The love we made can never be erased
& i promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to...
Until the end of time
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You know what.
Tears started to collect in my eyes when i'm listening to this song.
After it ended, tears rolled down.
Lmao.
It reminds me of him.
Like, totally?
The marry & kids & everything...
Omg.
OHMYGOD.
-.-?
I typed that all out okay.
Not C&P one hor.
Lol!
Sigh.
I am emo.
Who's there for me?
Nobody.
AHHH.
I.... Rlyrlyrly.....
Regretted.
• Not gg to schl
• Taking my guardians for granted
• Spending $ like water in the past
• Breakingoff w him
Regrets till i step into the coffin!
Till i'm being buried into the mud!
Till i'm only left w bones!
Yeah.
HELLO.
I am serious.
Hahaha whatthehell.
Watching shows now.
Boring....
跟你抱着，未等于爱上。
不再抱着，未等于不想。
你我在这分钟，说过无缘再见，
下秒钟再凑巧碰上。
即使一起，貌合却又神鹛；
分隔两地，日夜挂著愁眉；
再各自结新欢，却暗地拿你去比较现有的； 始终偏旦你…
有心爱你却爱不到，抱紧了你却又未想终老…
再等到与对方失散以后，就会知原来谁最好。
爱不到只会更想爱，抱紧了你我又无心装栽…
我跟你也破不到；男与女之间，
爱情的定数…
I wanna eat tangerines!
Adeus to my readers :)
Until you lose it,
Then you regret it.
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♥ W!
