❥ Monday, January 26, 2009 @ 3:38 AM
Hello. I am both happy & upset now. Screw me! ):
Sad because:
• He was spamming pple on msn lists saying HappyNewYear and then i kinda said hi. Guess what he said? Oops i was spamming. So he's trying to tell me he wouldn't want to say it to me, but because he msn me by accident? Lmao. Then i asked him how's he, he said why is me & (his ex's name) asking the same thing today? Fuck. I got literally pissedoff when he said that. It's like he's comparing me & his ex. Diu you lah cheebye! -.- Then he's like, i go Dota alrdy, bye. I jitao sian jibua okay. I won't talk to you anymore, boy. Since this is what you want, alright, you happy then that's it. I guess you're so much happier without me in your life, right? Hahahah. I'll forget you. I know i can. Just that it needs time.. 我相信我可以的!
• I am alone. All alone here. I know I've repeated these multiple times but i really cant stop thinking that i'm just so fucking pathetic here. What's all this? What the fuck am i getting? Sucha shits. Fuck everything that's going on! I reallyreally hopes that 2009 will be a better year.. I can't stop being upset over stuffs that happened in th past 1year. Ppl that i loved and i treated them with my whole heart, left me, forgetting me. I'm afraid to be forgottened, does anybody knows that? I am afraid of being alone. It just makes me so.... Fucking idiotic. I am like a dumbass everyday, missing all those times tgt with everyone. Even just having MSN convers with you guys I'll smile, I'll laugh, because atleast at that point of time i was being remembered. But after that? Idk, i guess i am just some passerbys in everyone's life. It won't make a difference if i am here or not. I am so fucking cheebye-ly disheartened by responses of some people. I didnt think that it'll turnout this way! I don't even know who can i turn to now... Friends that claims that misses me doesn't even talks to me on MSN. How nice? Huh? I hate this feeling that's overwhelming me! Almost all of you're only bothering friends in Sg. Even her.. Since she's attached now i can't say anything but lastlong. I won't be tagging her blog or any of those pple but only 18brothers & sisters, & some close friends maybe : ) In these few days, brothers & sisters chatted with me & i am really happy to have them! I love you all. :')
18brothers & sisters PBT! ;D
Okay. Happy things now.
Jansen sensensensen brother said my voice is funny. Hell no lor my voice so nice okay!! Anyhow one lah you :@ His voice very the funny. Like one duckduck quackquackquack! LOLOL shhh! :X Hope he doesn't sees this. But still i love this brother of mine! :)
Yesyes i love my Liping Honeh/Sister and Elysia Wifey/Sister tooooo! :D
My laoniang Carina is super loved too.
Cynthia Baby iloveyou too.
Damien the siaodingdong i also vehli the love you tooooooo!! You made me laugh until dontknow-what just now. Very happy to chat with you. Keep disiao me. Very cute. LOL. Hahaha! I hope you'll read this yo. WEIAI LOVES DAMIEN SIAODINGDONG :D LOL. DamienDamienDamien! Happy alrdy? See i so good write so many of your names. Next time online must thank me ah! Andandand i want my ciggs, you moron v^^ You better offer me some when we meetup! :P Meloveyou. <3
Yes and others not mentioned me love die you all too.
If you wanna think i dont like you then go ahead. I dont give a fuck damn anyway : )
Yes.
Goodgame lah. It's 3.35AM now yet i dont feels like sleeping because i'm missing someone.. ):
Nono not him lol. Some others. Dont tell you who! Secret. Hahahah.
I hope my kiss-withlove will have more tags! I'll give bigbig hugs to everyone who tags (I've got broad shoulders anyway HAHA) :D
Okay i am going to Friendster.
ADD OKAY!
Hehehee......
Bye.
Labels: Afraid to love once more.
