Hello.

I was feeling rather moody yesterday after some thinkings and so I turned to drinking & smoking.
It was said that while if you smokes while drinking you'll be drunk very easily.
That was totally what I wanted! :D
The ratio of the Absolute vodka which's 40%, to coke was 3.5:6.5!
It was rather mild actually I guess. So I smoked & drank at the same time.
Gulpped the drink within 2mins. D:
After that I began to feel very dizzy, but mind you, I was still very clear-minded. HEHEE. :$
Soon my whole body turned red! Gahh. That was.. Hilarious i guess? :\
Nights without him.. Very weird.
It was merely 4days & 3nights together with him, yet I guess I really loved him? Haha! Stupid.
Perhaps he was the reason for why I drank, I don't know..
Or is it because I'm leaving? Tons of reasons kept popping out in my mind yesterday night.

Oh and and, because after an hour or so I puked. I mean like, duh, why wouldn't I?
I guess if anyone was with me yesterday I would had looked darn stupid.
Drinking and smoking all by myself,
vomiting, and ofcourse, I was tearing my heart away.
I hate myself for being so emotional. I hate my thinkings.
I hate those things happening to me.
I hate almost everything in this world.. Or perhaps I love only computers & handphone? HAHA!

-Screams-
Okay shityou! Whatthefuck I just saw a nimph crawling on my handphone?!?! -______-

Dammit. I don't like this. :(
Guess I'll drink more tonight! Yay.
By the way, I'm leaving on Wednesday morning 9am.

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